I needed his lips, I wanted to feel them on me, kissing me and
I missed them, I missed him. I was away
for a short time, away in my sorrow and heartache, by myself at that lone,
tourist filled hotel. I cried most of
the time with anger and hate flowing through my tears. My phone continuously ringing displaying the
nickname I gave him so long ago. My anger
would not allow me to answer the phone, but my love deep down inside wanted to
reach for him. I hated him at that
moment, but I missed him. My emotions,
so up and down, I was so confused, I hated him but I loved him, I missed him, I
answer the phone. His voice arrests me
for a moment before my rage took over. I
asked hate filled questions about her, about what they did, when.. where..
why. I get off the phone only for him to
call back and it is repeated- again and again.
My yearning for him grows, I was away too long, I could not be away any
longer.
Our reconnection begins that late September night upon my
return. He holds me close and I allow
him. He lays me down gently and I want
to be closer. He kisses me softly and I
wanted more. Our emotional, physical
attraction intensifies as I embrace his every move on my body. Soon after he holds me closer and I cry,
tears of reconciliation and tenderness.
So many thoughts clouding my mind as I try to find understanding and
acceptance, I am desperate for strength to move forward. How are we going to get through this?
Put Jesus in the middle and he can do anything for you if you let him.
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